Warrior farewell

*Hurry write,
as if was bad,
I'm afraid to be read.
(I tremble.)
I get lost me,  get confused...
I have my heart in my hand (to along),
and it is taking cold. (to much time)
It would be easier to just say "I'm sorry"
and turn back.
It would be nice to fall into sea
and swim with the mermaids. (like a dream)
But destiny wants truth.
Avoid words that are too long,
Avoid actions that are too cold,
Smiling and stop crying.
They're all good to complain,
but who is good at judging?
I'm sorry.
I was a coward. *

I struggle in my heart, (I fight with it)
cradled by sweet melodies but too hard.
A sadness accompanied by the past.
homesickness.
For too long I dressed  as a warrior:
I wore a silver breastplate
to defend myself, a titanium swords
to figth, but I did not have place to love.
I am always escaped
from everything,
a run warrior
It is not worthy of its honor,
It is not worthy of its name. (like me.)
I never forgotten you. (missing you)
I'm good  to make
but I'm better at destroying what I create
And for too long time
I started work never finished,
left to die in time.
too long, too long.
Attack and defend like in a war
without first trying to write a peace.
I built a my fake world,
then I have made it collapse on me,
starting a fight more dangerous than me.
So far I have done nothing
that claim and wait
like a spoiled and willful queen
doing nothing, saying nothing ...
I'm sorry.

A warrior ( I speak of this, that this is me.)
He knows that now is not enough nothing
to close the game with a sweet finish.
You've always been there
closed in a small drawer of my heart,
but I never had the brave to open it ...
I was good to control the other compartments
making sure they were empty
but I was afraid to open that, (of you)
I was afraid that you could take flight, leaving me.
but more than anything,
I was afraid that you could take all the drawers
taking off the space to breathe.
Now I get it,
there are no drawers, (you are part of me, ever.)
I realized later ... later.
I'm sorry.
You've always been (you will remain) the most important for me,
but I know that nothing would suffice, (sorry)
then take your life and run away, happy. (But I not leave you)

* A warrior worthy of the name,
 knows how to let go the grip, accepting defeat.
I always pretended to be a warrior ... (convincing me)
Now I do in me really honor.
I started a war without thinking,
(... attacking and then defending myself.)
I made a fight for myself,
not for the love of something, (of you)
A stupid killer,
not a brave warrior. (that's what I was really)
Creating only chaos, only destroying everything.
I'm sorry.
I Tell you farewell, forgive me. (i love you) *